ok let’s pick back up from our conversation that took place right before easter. if you’re a new follower and reading this for the first time, i recommend you go here to read the first half of this conversation before diving into this one. 

what did jesus mean when he said “you bow before the law…”

first off, i’m not a scholar by any means. not formally educated in scripture in any way, shape, or form. my only experience is growing up in the church as a pastor’s kid and then following in my parent’s footsteps by pastoring. it is incredibly important to note, i have only been exposed to the westernized evangelical messaging and scriptural context found within such in my culture. it was only when i stepped away that i began to learn the depth, variance, and context when analyzing scripture. above all, i listen to my gut…my intuition. my body tells me when something is off and i need to look further into it. 

this...

i trust all is well with you. i have some thoughts as we walk into this big weekend…

in times past for me and jeff as pastors, easter weekend, was our biggest church event of the year. we planned months in advance…all the details of this glorious, easter sunday service, created and refined over and over again. we brought in and hired extra support, reminded our volunteers of their early arrival times, made sure the songs and lights were up to date.

we went over the top.
it was a production.

more people would come through the doors that day than any other day that year.

this weekend is the super bowl of the church world.

we had to get it right…our ego demanded it. we needed to share “the numbers” with our friends and mentors. it felt really good when those numbers were bigger than the previous year. it was a marker…on how the church, our church, was doing.

were we actually changing lives for the better?
not sure.

the overall church numbers...

this just might be my shortest blog yet.

life is evolving and expanding at such rapid speed that i cannot keep up with all i need to tell you!

so let me begin by saying…when you are ready…and i mean, *really* ready for abundance to flow in…god and the universe shows up in magical ways.

from my last announcement about the horse rescue, finding land in louisiana, and heading to the dealership to buy a truck…all three are fully in play at the very moment i write this.

i’ll share more later about the details…but since speaking with you last, i indeed traded in my beloved, blue porsche macan for a big ‘ole white, ford f350 dually. yep. you read that right. i’ve got a car that matches my body shape, and apparently you call trucks like this, “big booty judy”. i’m obsessed and navigating through dallas this past month has been quite the learning experience.

i’m experiencing the very first taste of what it looks...

enough.

i’ve had enough.

this blog post was supposed to be the latest update on my horse rescue journey, the purchase of my new truck, and all the things going on with my trust journey as of late.

however, i was hit up again this week from another dynamic, powerful, successful woman, who is reeling from the devastation of losing familial relationships because of boundaries she implemented all around religious theologies and the differentiation experienced within such.

i am ready to speak up about my journey within the church, how i have navigated this within my family, and how i have forged my path in discovering my own truth as it relates to god, salvation, heaven and hell, and various religious practices...all of this in hopes of helping those of you who have reached out to me over the years for guidance in navigating issues such as those mentioned above.

i desire everyone to hear about my journey, eventually; but this first expression will be held for those of you who...

omg. sooo many things to update you on and i am so freakin’ excited.

i will try my best to make this quick. here’s what is going on in my little world over here:

you know i’ve been going to one of the largest US horse auctions for the last two months…incredible lessons learned and insights gained. horses come through this business and some don’t even see the auction floor. “direct ship” horses, better known as kill pen horses, well, at this auction, this is the end of the road for them before they head to mexico for slaughter.

when i’m in the kill pen with them, the energy of demise and death is all around. i have found horses to be some of the most intuitive animals to interact with. it’s more than “nature” itself…mysticism is involved here. i have no doubts about that.

many of them are afraid of humans because either they are our wild american horses that the government is rounding up (not cool, another...

i don’t know about you but these last few days of 2023 are coming in strong! it’s as if there is a little unfinished business that must be tended to before the new year energy officially commences.

this is perhaps my most favorite time of year. i am here to learn about myself. take in all the lessons i can in this lifetime. so that means for me, i get to reflect on all the goodness and lessons this year brought my way, while endlessly journaling and setting intentions for where i am to go and what my life will look like 365 days from now all while practicing present-ness. (easier said than done)

inward healing, unshakable trust, and soul alignment were the recurring themes for me this year. i released so much and brought in more beauty, kindness, love, and intention this year.

i will never forget 2023.

she taught me how to love myself more, speak my truth, release people and past beliefs that no longer aligned with my soul and…to flow. stop controlling. stop the...

i know i know...it's december 15th when i'm writing this and i should be talking ALL things Hanukkah Christmas, Kwanzaa and over 20 more celebrations happening across all cultures and faiths...but i can't help feel the energy that 2024 is bringing already. but before i get to that...

let me first say to you...Happy Holidays.

whatever this season means to you, whatever traditions you hold dear and sacred beliefs you hold within the depths of your being...i celebrate the fullness of you, your traditions, and your beliefs.

my louisiana fam is heading here this week for our annual christmas tradition of devoting one evening to eating out, driving around in a big van viewing the best lit up streets here in dallas, and ending the day back at my home to share our gifts with one another. it truly is a blessed time, a sacred time for me.

whether this time of year is full of pure joy for you or you're processing this season through the lens of grief and loss, i am thinking of you. celebrate...

I’m on a plane heading to upstate New York as I’m writing this. There is something about planes and writing for me. It happens in coffee shops too. I get incredibly inspired. I think it’s the other amazing humans, strangers, around me. Human Design speaks of this… 

Anyway, I thought I would write my thoughts as they are coming in. I’m thinking about the religious war taking place in the middle east right now and the absolute devastation…all in the name of god and land that is claimed. Of course the conflict goes much deeper than the religious aspect alone, but the entire situation is giving me more courage to speak my truth in regard to god, my beliefs, human rights, and many more things.

First let me share my fears with you so that you can more fully understand my heart and why it has taken me many, many years to speak up:

While I will certainly confront issues, conflict is incredibly difficult for me. I desire for everyone to view me as...