and just like that…everything changed
Apr 08, 2024
i need to finish up my thoughts on my last blog i posted before easter weekend. after all, i did promise you the remaining conversation would arrive last week. but things all changed in my life really fast which is what this email is about.
first off, the responses to that blog and email in my inbox were many. i have over 750 of you on my email list and i received at least 75 personal email responses. i am grateful and also holding each of you, your stories, your pain close within my heart. i’ll be in your inbox again thursday morning to continue the conversation…
i’m going to give you a timeline to share with you how quick things can fall into place when one chooses to trust, the timing is right, and our desires are clear and on point.
remember my january blog/email about being done going to this horse auction every month and not being able to do anything about it? i told you i was starting a horse rescue, selling my porsche, getting a truck, selling my house, and getting land in louisiana.
then i got a check in my gut that the 120 acres wasn’t right for us but then something bigger showed up?
well here are the deets over the last two months (to the day today), but i want you to observe the duality and the unknown i had to hold throughout it all. this is the healing and emotional work i’ve been doing for the last two years. learning to release control and embrace surrender has been incredibly difficult, but what i am experiencing in the surrender is unlike any joy i have ever known.
- february 8th - i hosted the most wonderful, painful, hopeful conversation with close to 100 of you.
- february 12th - jeff and i traveled to louisiana to look at 300 acres that became available right after we said no to the 120 acres. while traveling to louisiana, the 300 acres went under contract. we were bummed, yet at complete peace with the process.
- february 13th - we decided to drive around the area and see if we could find any more property that stuck out to us. we had searched all day and nothing seemed right. we were about to jump back on the highway and came to a stop sign, i had an intuition to turn left. we drove around 5 miles and there she was. the most gorgeous property you have ever seen. it hadn’t shown up on any of our apps. i made a few calls and we scheduled to see it.
- february 14th - happy valentine’s day. my entire family and myself met the owner and realtor at his property early that morning. we were absolutely in love. i called a family meeting that evening. we ate, cried, and dreamed together of what life would look like with us all in close proximity again. i called the realtor and made an offer. within 20 minutes, we were under a verbal contract!
- february 15th - tahlia, from all seated in a barn horse rescue, let me know someone wanted to adopt lady smyles, the horse you and i, in november of 2023, saved from an inhumane slaughter in mexico. tahlia had transferred lady smyles to california in november. she gifted me first right of refusal and do you think i refused? absolutely not. it was a full bodied YES to adopt the girl that changed it all for me!
- february 16th - a dear friend shared with me she is stepping back from our relationship because i wasn’t showing up for her the way she desired.
a few days after that we had a significant health, life-threatening scare with a close family member that required extensive testing and the hardest of them all…time. jeff and i headed back to dallas and started preparing the house. we worked day in and day out getting our home ready!
- march 26th - i turned 46. happy birthday to me. we worked.
- april 1st - we called our realtor and were ready to list our home. we worked.
- april 3rd - realtor stops by and points out two large projects he’d like us to tidy up before listing. we worked harder.
- april 4th - jeff and i celebrate 27 years of marriage!! we worked.
- april 5th - the house goes on the market that evening. we worked until 2:30am putting the final touches on the home.
- april 6th - we have 7 showings and word that offers are coming in. (they did) we slept.
- april 7th - (yesterday) this is where things get even more special. eva and i drive to the horse auction, i walk up to greet tahlia, and she said…”your girl’s here.” i had no idea what she meant. i said, “what?”…she responded…”lady smyles is here. i had her transported back to texas this week and she’s ready for you. you want to go see her?” ugly cry does not even begin to describe what happened to me. at this point, jeff and i knew what offer we desired to accept for our house…and now i’m hearing lady smyles is here?
the picture above is me seeing lady smyles for the first time since we saved her in november of last year.
we are under contract. we close on the house at the beginning of may…we purchase close to 200 acres two weeks later to the day. paid for in cash.
today i watched a total solar eclipse from my beautiful backyard of 10 years, during aries season, in the city of my birth. it was supposed to be cloudy, and it was most of the morning…except for the 30 min before and after the total eclipse. the whole sky opened up. it was stunning.
and my heart and soul…i don’t even know how to put this much gratitude into words.
one thing i’m experiencing…when you choose to heal, get crystal clear on your desires and why you desire them, and then surrender the rest in co-creation with god…absolute joy, peace, gratitude, and the depths of love can be found.
i love you. let‘s dive deeper on what jesus possibly meant when he said “you bow before the law…” on my next blog.